Hero will always be remembered

Tak sampai pun 3 tahun jaga hero, now hero has left us forever, and i belief he's in a better place, insyaAllah..

Hero is a strong cat, to write everything about him really makes me crying, and maybe some ppl just don't understand apa yg sebenarnya aku rasa masa ni..

I never thought that hero akan pergi secepat ni..tak mungkin la akan menyangka, ever since i knw that he is positive FeLV, i just hoping he will be cured, in fact i know that is impossible, but i kept to think positive...

I refused to put him at the clinic, the reasons being i want him to feel comfort, relax at home disaat2 akhir hayat dia...

I treated hero mcmbiasa..i don't want him to feel like he is dying, even deep inside i know he is dying! And i'm dying too, tgk keadaan hero yg dh semakin kurus,...tak sanggup! I don't want him to suffer lebih lama...

Vet bagi ubat for a week, habis ubat for a weeks, linda dtg clinic lagi..

Monday, 12mac2012

Me: 'Doc, bole tak i nk amek ubat hero for 2weeks supply', nnt i bring him for check up...'

Doc: so how is he? Makan tak?

Me: 'yep, diye still ada appetite nak makan, wet food pun makan, dry food pun makan'...

Doc:' ok, mcmni lah, i bg u ubat hero utk seminggu dulu k?...

Me:' ok...;)

Wednesday, 14/3
Hero nampak lemah, so i decided to bring hero to see Vet..

Hero kene inject, and mcmbiasa Vet tanye, hero nak makan tak? And yes, hero masih ada selera nak makan walaupun tak mcm dulu, tapi still nak makan, so Vet kata as long as hero nak makan tu dh kire ok...alhamdulillah lega sgt dgr camtu, and i didn't expect anything...

Everytime hubby called, i let him to speak to Hero, and hero gerak2kan telinga diye, why i did this? dgn harapan..kalaulah hero 'pergi' nnt at least dia dpt dgr suara owner dia buat kali terakhir...:(((

After balik from clinic and kene inject tu hero terkencing dlm carrier diye, i knw..mesti sakit, and i didn't scold him...is ok, carrier kotor i can wash it, no big deal...
Hero nmpk sihat skit mlm tu..senang hati tgk hero agak sihat...

Sejak hero sakit, dia bnyk menjauhkan diri, tiap kali lepas makan, diye masuk dlm stor, ada masa terluang diye masuk dlm stor..dia tahu dia akan pergi tinggalkan kami..maybe dgn cara inilah dia try to put a gap between us...

Hari rabu tu, hero dpt la kuar jap lepak kat luar, and linda temankan dia...lebih kurang 30mins, then linda bwk diye masuk...maybe diye rase lega dpt hirup udara kat luar...;))

Hari khamis, i noticed that hero mcm lemah dari biasa, susah nak bernafas..tapi still makan, and then lepak dlm stor..

Kak zaza cakap, kucing ni kuat semangat..dia akan cuba kuat walaupun sakit..
I know that hero tried so hard to be strong, and he's a strong cat, tapi i don't want him to suffer...

Ptg tu, i sat kat store masa hero tgh baring rehat2, i still remember...i usap2 diye, and he looked at me...
Dlm hati hanya Allah saje yg tahu..kalau hero cuba utk kuat sampai my hubby balik from sailing, i know he will suffer lagi lama..
So i told him, 'hero...u don't force urself ok'...
Masa tu hero changed his position, dia membelakangkan linda...i know he's sad, me too!!!

But, i keep telling him...
'hero, pls don't force urself...hero jgn paksa diri tau, is ok..
Abg( panggilan for my hubby yg kami biasa gunakan utk hero) loves u, akak pun sayangkan hero, kalau hero tak larat, takpelah...( i think he's really knw apa maksud linda ckp mcmni)..

He seems ok lps tu,siap nak main tangkap lalat, heee....
Mlm tu, i went out for dinner with kak dee..balik je, he waited for us dgn harapan diye dpt kuar...but tak dpt kuar mlm tu sbb i was too tired..

Again, i told him..'hero, takyah kuarla k, akak dh penat ni..'

He just looked at me..pasrah sbb tak dpt kuar...

Hajatnye nak bwk hero naik tido, tapi kak dee kata, kesian plak kalau bwk hero naik, sbb nnt dia tak larat nak turun kalau nak minum atau nak g poo/pee...betul jugak tu...

So kami tinggalkan hero tido kat bawah..

Esok pagi?

Jumaat, 16/3/2012
Hero dah takde, hero pergi tinggalkan kami dengan sejuta kenangan manis,...

Cukuplah sekadar ini sahaja coretan tentang hero, sebab tiap kali cerita tentang hero, tgk gambar hero, tak tertahan airmata...

Terima kasih ya Allah kerana Kau pinjamkan hero sementara buat kami dan beri bahagia buat kami...

Hero tak lagi terseksa...

Rest in peace Hero pet! We will always loves you!

Love
Linda Nazmi

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